debbiecakes0423's Journal

11:42PM

Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take
from every heart you break
And like the blade you stain
Well I've been holding on tonight

And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

With a deep open breath, she says, "Finally, I can get back to my old self again."

Current mood: relieved

Current music: Guess...

11:42AM

Hey, just to let you guys know when you get your invites that the little gold envelope that's self-addressed is supposed to be sent back to me with that little card filled out. Just in case some of you didn't know because I've been getting asked that a lot. You have to RSVP so we know if you're coming or not. Thanks.

Current mood: happy

8:22PM

So, when did things get so complicated?

Current mood: frustrated

3:19AM

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

9:49PM

Yeah, about the party...
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aaahhh, just fuck it...

Current mood: aggravated

Current music: Something else I don't care about

2:40PM

[A is for age:]
20

[B is for booze of choice:]
Strawberry Daquiris or Smirnoff Twists in Watermelon

[C is for career:]
Student. Maybe a teacher (oh, the irony)

[D is for your dog's name:]
We don't have any pets :(

[E is for essential items to bring to a party:]
Smirnoff Twists - Watermelon

[F is for favorite song at the moment:]
Jesus Walks - Kanye West

[G is for favorite game:]
Sims 2 Nightlife

[H is for hometown:]
San Antonio, Texas

[I is for instruments you play:]
Piano

[J is for jam or jelly you like:]
Strawberry

[K is for kids?]
None, ever.

[L is for last kiss?]
A few seconds ago

[M is for mom's job:]
I don't know

[N is for name of your crush:]
Can't say

[O is for overnight hospital stays:]
None

[P is for phobias:]
Being alone

[Q is for quotes you like:]
"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream." (Edgar Allan Poe)

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest]:
My Mattykins- Almost 4 years (on Jan. 15)

[S is for sexual preference:]
Depends on my mood

[T is for time you wake up:]
Depends on when I set the alarm

[U is for underwear:]
Hiphuggers

[V is for vegetable you love:]
Broccoli- Yuummm...

[W is for worst habit:]
Having no self-confidence

[X is for x-rays you've had:]
Teeth

[Y is for yummy food you make:]
Onigiri (rice balls)

[Z is for zodiac sign:]
Cancer

5:22PM

I'm so fucking bored.

Current mood: bored

Current music: On A Day Like Today - Keane

9:40PM

Don't you ever think sometimes that everything is just too perfect, and that at any moment it will all just fall apart? I find myself thinking that all the time, so to balance it, I try and sabotage it in some way. I can't just appreciate something for what it is. There's always something lurking in the back of my mind that it's not real, that it won't last. Why am I such a fucking retard?

Current mood: cynical

7:22PM - Hi, everybody!

I've finally found you guys! Where have you been all my life? It's pretty obvious who I am. I wish I could've thought of a cool pseudonym like some of you have, but I like to keep things relatively simple. TTYL!

Current mood: blah

Current music: Question! - System of a Down